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The Divine Sneeze

You’re meditating. Sitting motionless, watching the rhythmic breath rise and fall, like the tide of a great ocean. Wispy thoughts drift by and by, unnoticed by the sky of your mind. Birds are chirping soft and delightful melodies and the distant hum of traffic plays gently on the screen of your consciousness. You’re not bothered, you’re calm.

You’re enjoying your centred, meditative state when an ant materialises and decides to slowly crawl up your hand, chomping through the jungle of arm hair, onto the steep ridge-like shoulder and up the overhanging recess of your neck.

The immediate response is to scratch it, swat it off with a back hand, but you restrain yourself. You’ve done this enough times and know to cool your reactive jets. You remain composed but you noticed the old tendency none the less.

Energetically however, the spotlight of your attention is still rushing toward it like Sauron’s Eye, as you watch its steady yet disjointed voyage up the mountain of your body.

You might be sitting still, but your not meditating anymore, you’re focused on this adventuring insect. This annoys you. You’ve lost your composure. So with all your mental might, you try to ignore its tickle, focus on the point between the eyebrows, WILL it off your body. None of this works and the jovial insect continues to make steady progress over your cliff-like jawbone. Your return to stillness has been thwarted.

Determined to continue, the brave ant makes its way onto the exposed cheek on your face. You quiver with the last reserves of patience. So close to the summit of your head, the ant is caught with an overwhelming surge of curiosity and heads for your cave like nostrils.

Searching ahead with its flailing antennas it peers into the darkness, whereby  your tremendous urge to sneeze creates an instantaneous wind tunnel to the unsuspecting ant.

“Oh no, I’m going to loose it!” arises in your mind, but it is too late. A powerful gust of wind roars up the nasal cavity and is met with a mighty ‘AACHHOOO!!”, booming across the proximal quietude.

In the simmering silence, something is different. Both the darting ant and the spotlight of attention is gone, as is the suffering of the ant.

All of that is absent, as if it were sucked out by a giant vacuum cleaner. All that’s left is the sparkling clarity of Awareness in which the experiencer, experience and the experienced simultaneous arise. One unitary field of present happening.

Everything is still there, your room, your garden, your body, your lucky Chinese cat waving its paw on your desk. Only, you’re met with a feeling akin to meeting an old friend, your oldest friend, You.

The feeling of aliveness is present, the presence of Being. You’re all there, but that certain someone who was so distracted by the questing ant, trying to meditate and trying to ‘be there’ is gone. The bodily sensation and the aspiring meditator were just two appearances in the mind. Now that has vanished, like waking from a dream, you are truly absorbed in meditation.

You experience vastness, an inner feeling of completeness, a oneness with the universe. A great love, a deep stillness, pure Being. Welcome to your True Self, the all encompassing Reality, the One Life expressing as the many. 

Why go anywhere else for satisfaction? Why the need for anything outside yourself? What you seek is already here, it is You, your free and timeless, egoless, You.

May everyone receive this Divine Sneeze.


Sometimes we meditate in order to stop our thoughts or make them go away, but this defeats the purpose of mediation. When we are attached to the outcome of our mediation it takes us out of the present moment because we are caught up in the desired result. When we mediate as empty awareness, we are truly receptive to the fruits of our practice.

Notice that the sense ” I am meditating” is seen by deeper impersonal awareness. That is what you really are. If you really want to be free of your matador mind, stay as the spectator, instead of chasing the red rag of changeful thoughts.

We can become attached to certain thoughts and feelings by giving them attention out of habit. When this happens, we turn a thought the size of a screen pixel into a full-blown blockbuster movie, giving it unnecessary significance. Instead, we can watch it from the sidelines, without identifying with it, and the drama will soon be over.

The easiest way to do this is to focus on ‘I am’, the intuitive sense of existence.  It is not, however, any tangible quality that your mind can create. The “I am” is an empty presence that observes all of the play of life.

Anything you perceive is an object of your perception, therefore you cannot truly be it because it comes and goes. As you confirm this over and over again, you stabilise in your inherent position as the witness. Slowly the habit of identifying with your thoughts fades away and you stabilise as Conscious Presence.

Now we can mediate on the question, “What is aware of the sense of ‘I Am’?”

This the formless, eternal, uncreated Being that you are. It goes by many names but it’s essence is nameless. You are That. Discover this now and put an end to all fears, desires and tribulations of the mind.

You are the Timeless, admit it.